The O.C probably the most famous of american soap operas that one has ever seen. Seeing it run and seeing how the plot kept on changing one could only say "ohh man thats screwed up and that can only happen in reel life". That was my very belief until the point i realized reel life can sometimes be real life. The sad thing about reel life being like real life is that you dont have a script, you dont know when the next thing happens or for that matter a bad thing might happen. Yes reel in real life is scary very scary. When reel life collides with real life then you think of lines like "Its hard to keep an open heart when even friends seem to harm you " . If i could possibly well summarize the fall semester one could easily fit into the song November rain for a short trailer. I dont quite remember who said " The world is a big stage and we are all actors in it " , whoever said was not high on anything he had tonnes of experience of life. Yes I would like to be an actor in the stage but yes please i want a script. I want a script to know what will happen next ? Will it be good or bad. Unfortunately as mortals we are not provided with luxury unless or until you are Nathaniel (the self proclaimed Jesus). That was just a joke!
I believe I invite disaster to myself and that being making friends with random people, inviting them for BBQ , movies , coffee , lunches to talk. I am one of the few guys who talk to the cafeteria lady in study center & have coffee with the Janitor of the school. Well that is me , its just in me & unfortunately I have no control over it.
There would be no those famous videos from Joy Productions eva, hakuna matata , Angels , Dancing Flore etc , all these would have never been there. I personally feel proud of Evas video because it was my idea as all start up ideas come from me. I would have never known Eva , Kamil Nathaniel as I know them now and its funny that we complement each other some how like each one having each others back though I would not prefer Evas cause of obvious reasons of her wieght. I feel these adverse situation made me even more closer to my basta dum kompisar Maddie. During these times I would be really happy with a simple "yess praddyyy " from flore which really lit up my day. These testing times again reignited the feeling of hate which was lying dormant and yes yes it has made me make some epic playlists in Spotify!
"One who keeps making the same mistakes is a fool " says some old wise guy, & then I guess I still have to be the "fool" , These so called tough times have also made a lot of people happy , I have seen smiles, I have seen excitements . And then again "No pain no gain" so I guess i will keep making mistakes and be a "fool" for the sake of humanity. Ha ha ha a very lame joke ! A lame joke is quite good days because the other ones have come true.
Who knew that being a mentor or meeting new people would lead to one of the worst crises i would have ever faced in my life. Who knew that it would lead to me breaking down completely and crying till my tears run dry. I thought it was always cool to have a cool temperament no matter what the situation is. It is time and time again tested. I had got a lot of rejections before i made it to here. and boy I remember I was under a tremendous pressure and not to mention the people who were interested in what I did , rather than minding their own business. I believe to live a life where I dont care what others think about . I can very well cite an example of volleyball , well I was not only one of the worst players and also one of the shortest to make things worst , but as time passed by I improved and now not only I have well defined role as a libero but occasionally I block as well and that is Ironic.
So could I have avoided me crying till my tears run dry ? Being sad and miserable. Yes I could have with a lot of What ifs ?? So what if I didnt go the very first volleyball outing at Ines? What if I didnt meet Tobias & Johan for World cup Matches? What if I didnt tell Kamil about the Eva? What if I had not invited Nathaniel for dinner when the only connection was a common friend ? What if I had not asked Eva to go for brunch ? What if i didnt have asked Piotr to join for Tea after.volleyball? What if I never kind of forced Secil and Merve to play with us ? What if I stop becoming myself.?
If I would have done the "what Ifs" I would just say , There would have been no SSKK (this I am not proud of, it was direct consequence of my troubles, there would have been no Drinking Wednesday, there would not have been any Karaoke, there would have been no Team Joy. There would have been no Elsas "come" or Marinas wicked thoughts , there would have been no team HAndle Shovel and there would have been my best friend " the crutches" , or for that matter that dreaded "shrink chair" .

Have I learned from my so called mistakes , perhaps not because i still keep calling in people inviting them to lunch , coffee etc and ironic its still germans !!! I am meeting new people in the form Nima , Sophia Luca who all are different in their own very way.
Tommorow is a kind of day off because I got my simulations working. Yeah ordinary guy but i feel just a bit happy when some time things go right and its not Ironic & I guess I am entitled to a little bit of happiness , even if its just a bit !
For the time after summer , oh boy its a start of new season with new characters and maybe character called "Prady" wont even be there for coming season ! Who knows! One cant expect , expectations are bad , adaptivity is the key for survival .
P.S Dear God ! I could really do with a script. Though right now , I am more ready for the unexpected than the expected!
Dear God - It refers to the real deal , not the one carrying a broken mug and drinking alcohol!